dells, shmells and alternate categories.

i'm having the worst luck with blogs. i've tried to post three of them, this week...yet end up losing them. i'll click send then vamoosh - gooone. not to mention that i'm typing veeeerrry sloooooooowly on my laptop as I'm writing this one, due to the fact that it keeps shorting out on me. lol. see, i need to replace a small part on my outlet plug and i've been all over the bay area looking for this part, but nobody seems to have it. i'm lead to believe that nobody carries the part anymore. if i think about how old this laptop is - the part just might be outdated rather than not found. lol. that's what i get for saving an old dell...lol.

oh yea. i didnt mention before. i'm in the bay right now. reporting to you live via blog. okay, not live...but you get the point. lol. i'm here again for training for 2 weeks. i've been here a week already - and have one more left to go. others beg to differ, especially some friends and coworkers of mine, but i LOVE to come here. then again, i think i just like to go anywhere that gets me out of having to go to work. LOL

work...eh. woooow. that's in a whole category of it's own to. LOL. where do i even start? umm, well, i feel blessed to have my job, as well as an established career with full future potential - and i do mean FULL FUTURE POTENTIAL...but i'll be honest, it is very stressful. it is one of the most stressful jobs i've ever had in my life. between the training and actual performance of work - it gets pretty wild. sometimes i feel like my head is going to explode. and some days i just feel like my mind is sooo tired. i've been handling it well thus far, as seeing that i haven't gotten to the point where i feel like i want to just walk out from frustration or run away and bury myself alive (surprisingly, lol). but i can see that it takes a toll on my spirit at times. brings it down some days, where i become really silent, mute, and to myself at work. i try to look at the bright side, so i just suck it up and use my days of frustation as motivating factors for me rather than let the experiences bring me down, but most days become way more overbearing than others. one thing i need to do is start expressing my frustrations out in other directions or channeling the energy in other ways. but we'll see what happens...

music. music. music...what can i say? there is so much new stuff out these days that i can barely focus. music is one of the ways that help me cope with all the stress that ive been feeling lately. i'll just focus on these 4 albums for now, because they are the most current to have dropped or are about to drop:

pharoahe monch - desire
talib - eardrum
common - finding forever
donnie - daily news


my favorite out of the 4 is the pharoahe monch. 2nd is talib. 3rd for a tie is the donnie and common. common is my man, i love him like i do my own brother - mother- sister - grandmother (all that know me know this), but he didnt put any umph in this new one imo, however, i'm going to buy the retail tomorrow and give it another listen...

i'll be back. :)